Truth and Consequences

I want to tell Gina everything.  I want to tell her the dreadful secret that may have manifested itself in my children.  I want to tell her of my shameful past, and my guilt in the disappearance of my sister.  I also want to tell her about the kiss I drunkenly stole from the love of her life on her wedding night, but I'm not sure the relief of guilt would be worth the consequences.
If I tell her about Kevin, she may never look at me the same way, but I guess at least she wouldn't disown me.
If I tell her about Erin, I will have betrayed my brother... and now that we've made up, that really isn't something I want to risk.
If I tell her about Tommy, I may ruin our friendship AND her marriage.
I'm so lost, I just need a guiding light to tell me where to go...
I guess the consequences of telling her about Kevin wouldn't really hurt her... maybe I'll start with that and see what else comes out. Or maybe I'll hide from the world and play dumb; who knows?