My Life in a Nutshell

So, now that we've got the bare basics out of the way, let me tell you about my life.
26 years ago, I was born in a small town to two loving parents and a 2 year old brother. A year later my mother discovered she was pregnant again, and gave birth to a girl, my younger sister Erin.  You may notice that Erin was not mentioned in my previous post of the important people in my life.  When I was 10, my parents left my brother Ralph and me in charge when they went to the store.  Erin was only 8 at the time, but of course we bickered the way siblings did, and Ralph and I went off to play a board game, but wouldn't let her join.  Erin pestered us for a while, but eventually went off to play by herself.  We never saw her again.  As soon as Ralph and I noticed that she was missing, we called our parents, and fabricated a story that Erin had stormed off in a rage after losing a game of Candyland, and that we tried to chase after her.  There were of course, many searches, but she was never found.  My brother and I have sworn to carry this secret to our grave.  I still remember the day like it was yesterday.  I was wearing these ridiculous purple overalls and pigtails which in hindsight made me look like Pippi Longstocking.  Ralph and I sat down to play whatever silly board game it was, and Erin pouted her way into the backyard, and I suppose off to wherever she ended up.
At school the next morning, I could tell that everyone was looking at me.  "That poor girl whose sister ran away" They don't even know how bad it really was.  The silver lining in all of this, is that that attention is what made Gina first approach me.  She told me that she was sorry for my loss, and for how all the other kids were looking at me. From there, our friendship grew into what may be the only meaningful relationship left in my life.
High school brought nothing much of note for me, other than a rampant crush on Tommy, and a few awful nicknames.
In college, I met Dave, my husband.  At first I honestly thought he was a little odd, but eventually I realized that he had a heart of gold, and finally said yes when he asked me out.  Our senior year, I found out I was pregnant.  Dave reacted with elation, and told me that he planned on proposing anyway, and pulled out a ring he had stashed in his glovebox.  This pregnancy is also the source of Dave and Kevin's rivalry.  When I was about 3 months along, and we still hadn't told anyone, we were over at Kevin's house, and we were joking around a little.  I slipped and fell down the stairs, and miscarried as a result.  I know that it wasn't all his fault, but Dave has never forgiven Kevin.  Honestly if it weren't for this feud, Kevin would have forgiven Dave's debt in a heartbeat. I guess I thought that I could solve their problems.  I made Kevin promise that he would tell Dave that he had forgiven the debt based on his brotherly love and a desire to reconcile.  I guess if these babies turn out to be Kevin's that will have been completely pointless.   Maybe I should just slip down another flight of stairs...

Where to start...

Back in college, I used to always joke that if I couldn't find a rich man to marry, I would just get involved in a massive scandal and sell the rights to the story to Lifetime and be made into a cheesy movie. Of course I was only joking, but in hindsight maybe that's what I should have done. Now I'm just caught up in a mess, and I feel like I'm living every day in a soap opera or daytime movie. So I guess a few basics to start:

The People

These are just a few the important people in my life

Gina

My best friend since middle school. I confide in her with all my deepest secrets. She lives just outside of town with her husband:

Tommy

I had the biggest crush on him in high school. He and Gina started dating senior year, but I never told her that I liked him because she knew I did first. The only secret I've ever kept from Gina is the fact that I drunkenly confessed my feelings for Tommy at their wedding and kissed him. He promptly pushed me away and told me that he loved Gina, but didn't think we should tell her. Things have been awkward between us ever since.

Ralph

My Brother. We're not nearly as close as we used to be, and I really miss that, but if he knew about the things that go on in my life, he would never look at me the same. I'd rather be distant and have him love me than be close and judged.

Dave

My Husband, the love of my life. He is an amazing man who has no idea what he's gotten himself in to, and I"m terrified that I'll lose him when he finds out.

Kevin

My Husband's stepbrother, and lifelong rival. Their parents married when Dave was only 4 so they've been around each other a long time.

and the only person that leaves is...

Me

I guess there's way too much to know about me for a little blurb, but here it goes. I grew up in a town with no secrets, and I hated that life. When I graduated, I moved to a much bigger area, and here there are so many secrets that it is hard to find the truth. Because of this I have found myself often ashamed of my actions. You see, what is most important right now is the fact that I am pregnant. The doctors say I am having twins. My husband is ecstatic, and I would be too if I were sure that they were his. My husband owed Kevin a lot of money... and let's just say that the two of us were able to work out a payment plan that I cannot say I am proud of. I guess I will know who the father is in mid May...

I will do my best to keep my blog updated so that someone, even if it is nobody I know, can know the truth about me...